It's my only hope to hold on too.
I wonder about him.
Wonder if I'll see him again.
Will I even have the guts to say more than 2 words if I do?
Wonder if he ever thinks about me.
I could've helped him. I should've been the listener that I am today.
He would've trusted to tell me why he was feeling that way. But I was immature and I ignored it.
I didn't even know it then but in just a few months I would be going through almost the SAME thing that he did. And he could've helped ME, like I should've done with him. Someone could have. I might have had someone to talk to about all of this. That makes me really, really angry with myself.
I was a bad friend towards him. Plain and simple.
I regret that.
I regret a few things when it comes to him, actions I chose to take.
Everything could be different than it is today. Everything.
And that kinda kills me.
But he didn't pursue me after that, he gave up I guess. So that leads me to believe that what we had wasn't real, because when you care about someone you keep at it. I wasn't worth the pursuing.
But he didn't pursue me after that, he gave up I guess. So that leads me to believe that what we had wasn't real, because when you care about someone you keep at it. I wasn't worth the pursuing.
what am I thinking here
I need to stop
it's all gone and I need to stop
I need something else to think about. I need something else to believe in
My thoughts are occupied by how things could have went if I didn't do something else. And that's for multiple situations
I'm having trouble facing with reality, that's it.
I feel like going to bed and just crying so than I will feel all better by tomorrow and have let it all out so this mood will pass
What happened, and when exactly did it all fall apart?
wow. that's pretty intense. reality is harsh. i love how the words of others can express my feelings, also. it's so much easier (probably because i'm so horrible at explaining things).
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